ew...mike... will someone PLEASE explain to me WHAT THE HELL I SAW IN HIS SORRY ASS?!?! oh my god. what did i ever, i mean, EVER see in him? what does ANYONE see in him? he looks so retarded now. he looks like he walked off the short bus

now dan, on the other hand ...oh my god, he had me at "do you have a lighter?" "no..mind got stolen last weekend..but emily has one. emily! let this guy use your lighter!" i just remember sitting on my car seeing him, thinking "huh? oh my god, that guys coming this way..hes coing up to me..oh my god.." lol, turns out he had a lighter all along, just wanted an excuse to talk to me. just like me being cold was an excuse to wrap his arms around me . hes so sweet...theres no way this guy is real. everytime i see him, its like this:

i just cant get enough of him..that one day i went without him, oh my god, i dont know what i wouldve done if he didnt feel the same about me. i probably wouldnt be here today. id give up everything for him. cause i know hell be right there for me if i need him. he was there for me when i asked him NOT to be, and he pulled through. nobodys ever done anything like that for me. and i would not have a one inch needle poked into my arm for just anyone. i still dont believe i deserve him, though. i dont know what i did to deserve him, but damn, it must be saint-worthy almost.

shit, im tired. off to dreamland.